Im so upset now...just hope to see him soon.
I left for work yesterday with an empty shell, got asked by preceptor wheres my brain and heart, for a moment im speechless. Yes, i think i forgot to bring them out.
Im starting to quries about my passion towards nursing. Yes, i love the kids. Yes i love it as a job but things are not going right. Im bascially dragging my feet to work everyday. and if i dont own any off days on weekends, i become super gloomy. I cant expect myself to be requesting offs on every weekends, but if this is the way how am i going to spend time with bee.
Im stressing out myself everday even before the start of my shift. I have the tendencies to keep thinking what cases would i be in charge of today and if im able to do it well.

If i have the money i would seriously break this bond. Yes, i should only blame myself for being so naive to get myself into this shit, but then again why do i have to do it in the first place. No one understands.

I really hate my JOB NOW. Especially facing those who had tender their resignation letter, they're demoralising me. They had enough after 3 years...I had enough for just 3 months. Pathetic evelyn who cant take STRESS and cant adapt fast enough. SHAME ON ME.